dear, God :'(

God . i'm here . nd he is there .
far away . nd i run this life without him .
not like the past .

do you know, god ?
now, he could smile . 
no tears . no cry in his life .
how about me ?
i still here, wait him .
i know , he don't care
he never see me .
anything i do . anything i say .
that's just like junk
:'( maybe it's hurt
and again i cry . tears . sad .
i haven't a chance .

nd the fact that made my heart really hurt is he found a new girl .
better than me .
so beautifull . nd look the best couple .
God .
 . i wanna stop my life .
my mom , my dad .aren't understand like him .
so licky that girl .
got stefan .
nd so lucky stefan .
found a new happines .
he had a lucky mother .
and he had the best famlly who always care .

nd how bout me ?
i just can tears . cry .. in the dark room .
alone nd always feel alone .

nd now .
i must go alone .
care like stefan
nobody give something special like stefan .

for stefan ..
i've said to you . i never lieve you .
when nobody cares to you .
 i'm here . wait you to come and hug me .
maybe not now to hug me .
not now to kiss me .
but ,
i want you do it when i die:)
cause  , for me .
so fast my life to run away ..
:'(

God . tengkiu so much .
aku tauuu .
semuaa yang aku mau ga akan terjadi ..
 dan aku pasrah...